Mantra of the week . . . I’m comfortable with not knowing; I act when clarity arises.😎 A-ha moment . . . Have you ever had a scenario that didn’t have an easy solution, but you thought you could think it through thoroughly enough to find one? This is where I’ve been the last few weeks . . . to my detriment, despite knowing better. 🤦🏻♀️ (We’re all beings in progress, after all. 😉)
My step-dad raised me since I was about 3. We were very close actually…he was aging but the tragedy of his last months took him from us too soon (or right on time according to the Universe). I saw one of his former co-workers walking down the street last week and pulled out my phone to text him… 🥺
Grief is a beast - and complicated, ambiguous loss in grief seems to add more scales and horns and fire to a dragon we are trying hard to fend off…
Never really grieved my dad because of other toxicities (🚩) in my life during the time…think that made last weekend more difficult for sure.
You mention “time being precious”
I bought a watch shortly after my dad’s stroke/accident that has no hands and the watch face simply says “NOW”…because that is all we are promised. I bought matching bracelets for my mom and children.
Adam, he was your father! And yes, I understand the grief at the time being different than in retrospect. There can be a new kind of clarity about what was and wasn't healthy with some time and space. I hope that you're finding more and more inner peace in response to your grief. ❤️🩹
I love the watch face..perfection! If there is one thing I know with absolute certainty due to a lifetime of many unexpected losses, it's that NOW is sacrosanct. And what a beautiful gift you give by sharing that awareness with the people you love. ❤️
Lisa!!! First - seeing the headline “weekly awe” and your smiling face - I actually said “awe” - you are awe-inspiring, awe-worthy, and awe-encouraging!!!
Second - 💔 shared…my step dad passed away two years ago last Friday so my head and heart have been in a similar season (you may see mention in my notes - with a pic I took on the morning he passed)…
So many things to say but I will simplify for everyone’s sake - Thank you Lisa…there is a kindred energy vibration between us and your words influence life in and thru me.
Oh Adam, it's always lovely to hear from you! And what sweet sentiments today, thank you. 💋
Yes, to shared 💔. Were you close to your step-dad? I was never as close to my dad as I wanted to be...he was stoic in ways that made intimacy impossible. So when he died, I mourned the loss of the potential relationship we could have had, as much as the actual loss. I know I still grieve that lost potential...probably always will. It's different than the loss of my mother, because she and I were close. Now, not a day goes by that I don't want to pick up the phone and call her. And although I miss her terribly, I don't feel like there was much unresolved between us. Dad's loss serves to remind me that time is precious and we must say the important things that are in our hearts.
My step-dad raised me since I was about 3. We were very close actually…he was aging but the tragedy of his last months took him from us too soon (or right on time according to the Universe). I saw one of his former co-workers walking down the street last week and pulled out my phone to text him… 🥺
Grief is a beast - and complicated, ambiguous loss in grief seems to add more scales and horns and fire to a dragon we are trying hard to fend off…
Never really grieved my dad because of other toxicities (🚩) in my life during the time…think that made last weekend more difficult for sure.
You mention “time being precious”
I bought a watch shortly after my dad’s stroke/accident that has no hands and the watch face simply says “NOW”…because that is all we are promised. I bought matching bracelets for my mom and children.
Thank you for being a part of my now, Lisa 💜
Adam, he was your father! And yes, I understand the grief at the time being different than in retrospect. There can be a new kind of clarity about what was and wasn't healthy with some time and space. I hope that you're finding more and more inner peace in response to your grief. ❤️🩹
I love the watch face..perfection! If there is one thing I know with absolute certainty due to a lifetime of many unexpected losses, it's that NOW is sacrosanct. And what a beautiful gift you give by sharing that awareness with the people you love. ❤️
Lisa!!! First - seeing the headline “weekly awe” and your smiling face - I actually said “awe” - you are awe-inspiring, awe-worthy, and awe-encouraging!!!
Second - 💔 shared…my step dad passed away two years ago last Friday so my head and heart have been in a similar season (you may see mention in my notes - with a pic I took on the morning he passed)…
So many things to say but I will simplify for everyone’s sake - Thank you Lisa…there is a kindred energy vibration between us and your words influence life in and thru me.
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Oh Adam, it's always lovely to hear from you! And what sweet sentiments today, thank you. 💋
Yes, to shared 💔. Were you close to your step-dad? I was never as close to my dad as I wanted to be...he was stoic in ways that made intimacy impossible. So when he died, I mourned the loss of the potential relationship we could have had, as much as the actual loss. I know I still grieve that lost potential...probably always will. It's different than the loss of my mother, because she and I were close. Now, not a day goes by that I don't want to pick up the phone and call her. And although I miss her terribly, I don't feel like there was much unresolved between us. Dad's loss serves to remind me that time is precious and we must say the important things that are in our hearts.